Daddy and Rhett head back to Phoenix………
Tonight was a tough one. Rhett and I are headed back to Phoenix tomorrow because I need to get back to work. Some emotions were running high, especially from the boys. I think it finally hit both of them that they were about be separated from one another for more than 21 days and they’ve never been away from each other that long. We also believe that Rhett is starting to get a better read on this situation; it’s evident that he is filling in the gaps and it’s subtly starting to show.
We’re glad that Shawnee’s mom, Donna, arrived on Wednesday because it gave the boys a little taste of home and boy to they love their GrandMa (they love their other GraMur too). Yesterday, we drove to down south to Heidelberg so the boys could see one amazing castle, one which ruins are among the most important Renaissance structures north of the Alps. The earliest portion of the castle was built before 1214! The following day, after having stayed in Heidelberg over night, we drove to the North Rhine-Westphalia state and visited the romantic Drachenfels Castle, built in the 12th century. What a view. A cave in the hill is said to have sheltered a dragon. Smaug anyone? For my Lord of the Rings fans out there. Interesting fact, the mountain that the castle was built on was quarried and from 1267, the supplied stone was used for the world famous Cologne Cathedral. After a great lunch on one of the little side streets, it was time to get back to Cologne. Needless to say, the boys had one amazing mini-trip together, discovering the nooks and crannies of some amazing castles. #mostbestdays
It’s time to now check back in with reality. My company, DMA, has been more than generous and patient with me, enabling me the opportunity to come to Cologne to see Hollis treated as well as build some memories with my family. However, I must get back to doing what I do best and that is fostering and cultivating relationships as well as delivering customized foodservice and supply chain solutions to some of the best restaurant chains in North America! Rhett will be spending most of his summer attending a few camps with maybe a quick escape out of town with Daddy but what’s crazy is that his 4th grade year starts the 2nd week of August…..wow! Shawnee and Donna will be taking care of Hollis and enjoying some quality time with one another before he begins his 2nd round of immunotherapy on July 5th. Once complete, the three of them will be flying back to Phoenix July 15th. I think so many people will be thrilled to see all of them. However, Shawnee will be turning back around and heading to Cologne July 30th with Hollis and Carrie McCahan, one of Shawnee’s closest friends and a practicing P.A., to undergo his 3rd treatment.
As a man, I’m struggling right now, knowing that I’m about to leave my wife and son alone in Germany for 3 more weeks but I have to remind myself that indeed, I am not in control. I’m just going to put this out there. I do live in fear, fearful of what the future has in store but at this very second, God reminds me that the enemy uses fear as a weapon against me. Yes, there have been moments while everyone was asleep in the apartment and I just felt completely overwhelmed with a thick shadow of darkness, controlling my every thought. I’m tempted to fear for Rhett’s future, Hollis’ life, my marriage, our extended families, I fear for my financial future, I fear for our safety. This is the SHORT list, right? There actually is a lot we could potentially worry about. I struggle with fear and worry every day. But through precious minutes and the smiles of my boys, I began to find that the things that send me down an anxious spiral, no longer had the same effect.
I’m often reminded of words, of life, of truth. Soaking them in, over and over, praying them out loud in my mind and heart. I tell myself that they MUST become so familiar, so familiar that they replaced the other things in my mind that I’d battle against and with. There’s nothing magical about words and verses, but there is power through them, because they’re God’s words. Anxious thoughts slowly diminish and fear let’s go of its constant grip. And even though fear is sometimes still there, it no longer wields control, holding me back, paralyzing me in its grasp. I just rest on this: that His words are words of life, soothing to my soul, calming to my spirit, all while giving power to my days.
Leaving tomorrow at 5:45 am for the Cologne train station with Rhett, I will still feel afraid, but I can believe that God is with me. I may not be in control, but I can trust the One who is. I may not know the future, but I know the God who does.
Continued prayers for our Hollis Richard please. #HopeForHollis #MostBestDays #HISloveisamazing